BAD MEANS BETTER

what the fuck was i thinking.

im geetting back to the jissst of thaanngs.

surrounding myself around positive people,

single. ;-)

just got a job at armani xchange.COME VISIT (GSP).

soooooooooooooo

i misss alot of people.

get in touch with me somehow.

bam boozeee alllll

was pretty amazing.


I HONESTLY FELT EVERY EMOTION YESTERDAY.


goodtimesssss

never been so alive.

fooling myself with thoughts of what could be.

im glad i know myself well enough to know this will soon past.

so in the meantime i will try my best spending the hours being oblivious to all of this.

its cool,we can still be friends.

how to disappear in america without a trace

im taking a break from the world.time for myself,my interests....

=)

"out of sight...out of mind"

i just liked these lyrics..thanks deathcab

first off ben gibbards voice is amazing.


Left uninspired by the crust of railroad earth that touched the lead to the pages of yout manuscript.
I took my thumb off the concrete and saved up all my strength to hammer pillars for a picket fence.
It wasn't quiet what it seemed...
a lack of pleasantries (my able body isn't what it used to be).
I must admit i was charmed by your advances...
your advantage left me helplessly into you.
Talking how the group had begun to splinter and i could taste your lipstick on the filter...
I tried my best to keep my distance from your dress but call-response overturns convictions every time.
My memory cannot recall...
a wave of alcohol we shared a cigarette and shaved the hours off.
Lushing with the hallway concregation, my best judgement signed its resignation.
I rushed this.We moved too fast, and tripped into the guestroom.

baby im bad news=)

'Cause you're just damage control for a walking corpse like me - like you"

last night.

likeeee was amazing.

ive learned to act in the moment,no hesitations,no worries.course i was high as shit..=)

...

and what the fuck.it was so sexy outside,new york city needs to continue to stay warm so i can wander around the city and enjoy it..

oh and i heard the cutest reggae song.

by the expendables.its called bowl for two.

of course my maryjane loving ass would find this song adorable.

peep it.

Oh II packed this bowl for two

And II’m gonna wanna smoke it with you

Yes you know it is time

For us to sit down and unwind

I know the feeling, I know the feeling

So stay with me tonight

Gonna kick back relax

Make sure the ganja’s packed

And we’ll feel all right

We’re flying high now

We’re flying high now

I cannot feel the ground

We’re flying high now

We’re flying high now

My world is spinning round

So please don’t run away

When my ganja’s all gone

Promise me that you’re gonna stay

When my flight is all done

There’s only one thing left to do

I got this one nug this frosty purple nug

And it’s big enough for two

expressing my feelings through donny miller.

Buffalo soldiers

another great spike lee joint.

into good films.

do your self a favor and watch this.

POGO PUNK!

friday:

whiteplains.

galleria mall parking lot.

vodka

peeing on the edge of elenas car

throwing up on a random parked car

me wearing elenas XwhitechapelshawtzX in 20 degree weather

WORST SHOW EVER.

me being a asshole and punching out 2 punk kids.

getting thrown down stairs

elena was there to save the day.

purchase college

a dollar dub

max is the man.

elena not being able to drive past 50.

SLEEP.

saturday:

montclair state

GETTING HORRIBLE DIRECTIONS.lol

about 5 shots of vodka?...getting us wrecked.=)

learning that protest the hero is hardcore.........

convincing niggas to let me drive after throwing up in the bathroom for a hour.

basically

me and elena being absolutely rediculously awesome and obnoxious at all times.

roadbike

gsp mall.
toms grandma telling me to put clothes on.
toms 7 yr old cousin telling us to shut up
toms 7yr old cousin pushing me down the stairs
elena laughin at toms cousin pushing me down the stairs
mission to get a dub
girlfriends and over weight sisters hating me and elena
us taking turns saying rediculous things that probably should never be repeated.

ummm none memory of the ride home

passing out


the end

blah blah blah

im rubbber your glue whatever you say bounces off of me and sticks to you!!!



me and delilah cant stop singing
Cuz if you liked it then you should have put a ring on it
If you liked it then you should put a ring on it
AALL DA SINGLE LADIES..ALLL DA SINGLE LADIES

BAHAHAH


AND FUCK YOU AND THE HORSE YOU RODE IN ON!!!

BAHAH

toms back=)

i start dance classes next week.
cant wait
^_^

LOL

your childish antics make me lol

wasting time and energy to bash me?


i can play that game too.but in that sense maybe i just love myself to much to let a imbecile bother me.

sassy

im not hurting one bit.


friends betrayal.
sorry you couldnt handle rejection.
thanks for ruining it though.like really
im happier now because of it.


I WOKE UP AND LOOKED IN THE MIRROR TODAY AND REALIZED IM HAPPY WITH WHAT I SEE.
IM HAPPY WITH THE PERSON I AM
NO ONE CAN BRING ME DOWN.
BEEN SINGLE FOR A WHILE NOW WITH A BIT OF DISTRACTIONS.
BUT NOW I KNOW I DONT HAVE TIME FOR BOYS.ITS ALL ABOUT ME.


oh god for a minute i thought my confidence was a facade.

suck my swagger.

my heart isnt broken,im still not dead

Lost sight Couldn’t see
When it was you and me
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
I’m beginning to see the light
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
But I think I’ll be alright
Been black and blue before
There’s no need to explain
I am not the jaded kind
Playback’s such a waste
You’re invisible
Invisible to me
My wish is coming true
Erase the memory of your face
One dayYou will wake up
With nothing but “you’re sorrys”And someday
You will get back
Everything you gave me

if it nots forever.its just tonite

woke up to the voice of my lesbian cousins wigger probation officer
got to eat tropical smoothie=)

tyler and me slipped and busted our asses on ice.
a yorkshire terrior pissed on my lap
drived around..smoking joints .listening to slightly stoopid.
tyler is a amazing friend.she really is
i probably have the most fun with her.


me and my mom are sleeping over her friends house.
i have a joint in my pocket and some matches.
im going to be sneaky sneaky
;)


.sleep never came so easy,
goodnight,

When we sat outside for an hour at the party and talked
I thought something good could be starting
It's not a lot that I want
just some talking
and really, you just injured my pride

• A. You're gay
• B. You've got a girlfriend
• C. You kinda thought I came on too strong or
• D. I just wasn't your thing
• no ring

Susan said that maybe you're scared
Shelly says there always is a reason
and Chris said you're probably surrounded by girls
and I'm just not one of them you're needing

oh dip wknd trip.

last night was great

drove about 4 of the hrs to va
double teamed a screaming match against old people with my mom

hungout with old friends

smoked.
saw the cutest french bulldog ever.


simple night yet awesome.



i still hate waiting.

We are not the same, I am a martian

i find myself on mars lately more than i should probably be vacationin

my brother just put his bare ass on top of my foot

i cant stop laughing

im listening to the sleeping.

they remind me of justin for some reason.

i dunno...reminds me,he has my brandnew cd >_<

apologies are being excepted.

my moms drunkiez with my aunt

its lol enriched.

i miss tom! that fag.

i need female friends that are as idiotic and spontaneous as meh.

i need a ipod fuck.

i hate spanish boys.

ima h34rtbr34k3r

fuck i love chicken

i like being smothered.

never happenz this way.

i really do love lucy

rufio is good when your high.

anchorsssss aweigggggggggggggggggggh!

shortbreaths

if i break down all that i am
what its worth to walk
if i turn around what matters most in time
to talk to remind
all in time will be
later on we can try
thats how the days go
but you were always the one to stay the same
and i know i dont deserve this..
i know we can fall in there
then unfall again
my legs feel like rubber
feeling romance,playing the fool
you werent alone.
these shadows are taking care of us
drinking myself silly night after night.
wanting some claim on your heart
its on the tip of my tongue and itll never go away
this dream is just begging to end




im going to virginia beach tomorrow.

love taught me to lie

ive made some mistakes recently.

prob the most in the last few months than ever in my life.

for those of you who look past the coating and tried to see me for the person i truly am,thank you.

thank you for standing by me,and letting me care about you with whats left.

my heart is happy..

dallas green has the most amazing voice i swear.

its my mommys birthday,shes amazing.

I'd squeeze a heart through my fingertip, but I type too slow to make expressions stick.

everything is falling into place.

im beginning to know what i want

to know what is right for me.

ill wait forever if i had to.

Lets play boys chase girls.

okay,i felt the urge to start blogging again..or maybeee i just got exposed to someone else's and it reminded me of what a outlet this blogspot shit can be.

hmm where am i at life.

• back living in north new jersey.


• no job. no school.just living


• ..not even socializing much,no effort in making new friends..for what?


• single..kinda

oh man..2009,this is looking good

the suns never seemed so bright.

..i feel like with every new year comes new beginnings,im not quite sure why i had to wait for it to be technically 2009 to feel like i was able to start fresh.ive just been hanging in the city as often as i can wether by myself or with worthy friends..and boy is new york city beautiful in the winter..

i started this year with no negativity,no skanky gross friends who use people,no scummy guys.

hopefully this is my year.a good year,where i have no boys bashing my car windows,where im not miserable at school,where bestfriends dont stab me in the back...yehhh this year will be amazing.

lol im trying to be a visionary here....

and finally my guy situation is rather well

just...confusing.

i dont know how i should feel,what i should think,what i should want.

its always easier to have a guard up.

its always easier as "just friends".

oh and i miss my bestfrand aaron cave who left me to be in the army

easy does it.

the secret about boys is that they want you to like them

they want you to like them

they want you to like them

they want you to let them

the secret about girls is they want you to like them

they want you to like them

they want you to like them

they want you

the secret about girls is they want you to like them

they want you to like them

they want you to like them

they want you to think they're cool.